18 June 2011

On Mastering the Art of Dining Alone

Let me apologize for my lack of updates.  Things have been a bit topsy-turvy as of late but all in the name of progress.  Good things have been happening and I attribute it 50/50 dumb luck/initiative.

I've recently leveraged myself into a new, more lucrative position that allows me 3 day weekends.  This is good news however you slice it. What it's brought me to realize, though, is that I have nothing to do with my extended weekends.  Ultimate Frisbee Sundays have been going off pretty well for the past several weeks which has been my primary form of exercise.  I haven't been to the gym in quite a few weeks upon realizing that all that time spent on the elliptical hasn't at all prepared my for frisbee season.
But besides frisbee I've been mostly twiddling my thumbs.  I've become very comfortable in the last months with sitting alone at a Chinese buffet or at a sushi bar by myself.  I kinda like the idea of it.  There's a big city isolation about it that I find attractive but it's also lead me to admit to myself that I'm a very lonely individual.



And most certainly not lonely in the 'oh no, we have to find someone to hook Dave up with' way.  Pair coupling would be the worst possible solution.  Whenever I find myself in a situation where I feel that someone is reliant on me for their emotional happiness or if I feel smothered I quickly distance myself and shut down.  It's ultimately a very self destructive pattern.
The loneliness I've been pondering is more of a communal disconnection.  Not to say that I don't have a great circle of friends.  A number of them I spend a good deal of time with.  I think that I've romanticized   the role of the misanthropic loner so much so that I now don't know how to escape that mindset.


Anyhow, this was supposed to be an upbeat entry.  Back to the awesome stuff that's been going on.
My Golden String Radio show, with the working title of The Alchemist Lab, starts today and every Saturday from noon to 2.  Tune in and join on the chat.  There will be guests, freestyle rhyme sessions from individuals who shouldn't be rapping, trivia, and mostly just me being awkward and playing songs because I don't have anything to talk about.

I'll be getting fitted for a tux today for my main man Bumoltua's wedding in Cleveland coming up next month.  I'll also be booking my room because I plan on getting wine drunk in public that night which will be a first and I'm sort of excited about it.  While I'm out that way I'll likely go sit at the sushi bar by myself again and eat all the rolls.  If anyone is in the Boardman OH area in the afternoon/evening and would like to join, feel free. Otherwise I'll be like Dr. Frasier Crane in this season 4 Episode:




I promise to update more frequently than I have been over the past couple months.  I've got a number of drafts that need finished.  I'll likely be posting the playlist for my show on here as well.  Until then, godspeed.

1 comment:

Afrochic said...

Lovely entry. For some reason, it reminds me of the stuff we wrote in high school, perhaps cuz it has that stream of consciousness quality.

Congrats on the new position and the radio show (not sure if those are one in the same). Also, I dig the Fraiser clip, cuz I love that show. Be well!